Why am I still here? What point do I have sitting here doing nothing? I’m not Learning a damn thing. All of this I already know. School Is meaningless and wasting my time. Why can’t I just stay home? And wake up next to my boyfriend. That’s all I’ve been missing. Waking up to my baby. I’m trying to quit smoking. But damn i need a cigarette… I don’t want to go to work tonight, there are other things I’d rather do. I have to clean the house. I’m to the breaking point where I’m going to pack a bag and leave for a few days and not come back.. But no. I have responsibilities. I hate my job and love it at the same time. I want to get a new one, but it won’t be as much money. That’s what I need. A higher paying job. Fuck my life. I’m tired if being controlled. The weight of the world is on my back. I have got to get out of here. I can’t stand it anymore. I Want to go home.
Thoughts of the moment.
